Saturday, November 28, 2009

31st- Why me?

Yo, today was fucked up hard.
So stressed from this treasurer shit
and to lazy to start
my heavy tasks.
These tasks are really hard,
I have to call everyone fast,
and remind all of em' to bring money,
more money, again and again, and pass em' to me
on the camp date itself with all sorts of regulations which are really
complicating.
Something to do with investment or some other thing.
Have to create
a list by the due date
which might and eventually will be too late
for me cause i have not even started it yet.

Have to ask some people about
what to bring for the camp right now,
cause i lost the paper. How
could i possibly be qualified to be a treasurer. HOW???
A question which i keep asking my self up till now.

Responsibilities,
nothing to do with my specialties.
Math is.
I can count but can't keep
things in check. Its like what the heck.
Losing things while i sleep
and lose track
of where i put it. Here or there.
So isn't fair!!!

Upset with some poeple's attitudes.
They have illude
me with their so called 'change'
and are really rude.
But don't wanna diss em' and cause a feud
between em'. For the greater good.

~peace out

Jerking off at...
8:01 PM

Friday, November 27, 2009

30th- Homework got me berserk

Its been a long time since i posted.
lots of things have occurred.
i just couldn't be bordered.

So yesterday, i went to school,
for a sports captain briefing which was kinda cool,
had to make farewell cards for those seniors too.
Had to create a routine
which made us look like fools.
Have to remind everyone
to bring money for the camp food,
make sure they understood
the new 'rules'

I Seriously think that i'm losing my divine lines
again.
Cause this time, like the last time, i lost all the nice rhymes.
What a pain.
Thinking it fresh is sorta better.
My goal is to go to express with greater
marks and later, to be a professional rap freestyler.

I have not done my homework yet.
I guess i'll set-
-tle it later in the months ahead.
Even though i might forget,
I'm just too lazy to do all that
homework.
If only i had
this thing called 'hardwork'.
Seems troublesome and its driving me berserk.

I hate chinese.
I'm not being racist,
i'm just so fucking irritated with this
language cause of its characters which help increase
my stress. At least,
there is comprehension,
which helps in the addition
of the completion
of marks.

~peace out.

Jerking off at...
6:07 PM

Friday, November 20, 2009

29th- ncc camp

Kays!
i'm back after two days
of ncc camp...
Was really tiring
and wasn't that much exciting.

1st day-

I had reminded ren kun to wake up early,
to go for the camp... punctuality.
But there was a turn of events. See,
Renkun had PeerSupportLeader camp already
the day previously
and came home late, like at 1.30
in the morning.
So while i was rushing,
he was on his bed laying
down. Sleeping.
So i had to go to his house and wake em'.
Took pretty long, lots of dissatisfaction.
He was too tired from yesterday's 'commotion'.
Finally,
he had awoken!
While he bathed, i waited
reluctantly.
Luckily,
His father was around...
So he could send us to school compound.
But still, we were late.
I don't hate
ren kun nor blame him cause he is a friend.
And 'friends' help one another even though they did delay.
So back to the story,
Since we were late, Sgt. Hakim assigned us to some pumping.
Pumping as in push ups and really tiring.
Don't noe why but i had a hard time breathing.
Once we were done with it we went to our bunks.
At last,
we could have a break from all that 'hard work'. Plus,
our bunks was a sec 4 class.
~sigh
I think we went to train
on our drills
next.
And then a test came
next.
And to thought we could relax.
I guess not, cause these exercise isn't so 'kick back'.
After that,
we head out for lunch.
It was done differently cause we had to cook for munch.
As in, light some special cubes then let the fire grow.
Fill a pot with water... musn't be too low.
nor too high.
Cause later when you boil the foods,
it would be severely moisturized!
We had to cook our own food
for lunch, dinner, supper and breakfast... no mood.

Afterward, we went to the hall for another revision
on our IFC(in field craft) or was it communication...
i can't remember.
And ANOTHER test came.
Had a seven out of an eight.
It was then where we were told to communicate
with our group members... mustn't be too late.
The night walk was canceled, fuck!...
WATTA FUCK MR CHANDRA!!!
You spoil everything you boring teacha!
And so we were told to do something different here,
And make a tribal dance and a cheer.


Its like Deja vu.
Had to do
something like that in a primary school.
It was in P6 camp too.
But i didn't co-operate due
to my skittish attitude
because of this one girl in the group.

I had an idea.
lots if it but too timid to answer.
Regretted for the whole month after.
Oh how i could've impressed her
~sigh

But in this case,
she wasn't there, so busted up my brain,
had that thinking face,
and came up with both of the tribal dance and the cheer.
It wasn't much, but i had to do it in an instant.
I was just an amateur freestyler.
But luckily,
listening to eminem really
payed off. SERIOUSLY!!!
My team members had to repeat every
sentence that i say, so its basically me
creating the cheer.
And it went like this

"Echoe after me!
We are from ncc.
the coolest cca, in all of history.
We will always improve, our disciplinary skills.
Went its time for 'diam' we sit still.
We have unique qualities and special skills
-PDS, stationary and foot drill.
And again,
We are from ncc.
the coolest cca, in all of history."

But the tribal dance was pretty wacked out.
Zahier and everyone was like laughing their lungs out.
They were all saying, "Dude! haha! thats too stupid to try out!"
In my mind, i was like... Anything you can think about?
Nothing right! so shut up and don't laugh and shout!
But i didn't really said it,
just thinking about it.

But soon, they realized dat.
And edited it by
adding their ow remarks.
In order to get a fire, the trigger is the spark.
And i was the trigger.
Even though the final dance was better.
(i think.)
It was not what i said but at least we were happier
doing OUR style.
IT WAS WILD!!!

There was a model competition...
where we had to dress a group member and make it our creation.
Lots of funny shit but too lazy to writing em' in repetitions.

After that,
we had to do our cheer and dance.
It was time
to put our skills to test and grind
our enemies to the ground!
So then we released the cheer
and he commented something like this," it is suppose to be a cheer
not a song. Did you not hear?
You better fear,
that this might be bad in my teaching career. "
What is wrong with you.
It was original compared
to the rest.
Unless,
you have no taste in rap
nor good rhymes.
You really have to spoil it before bedtime.
You noe what.. never mind.
You can join fat Mr. Camlesh you swine.

So anywho, we won...
even though i'm still pissed with what went on.
I felt dissing him with every
single poetry
line, or lyric which i ever knew 'in all of history.'
Mr. chandra would loose to a freestyle with me.
... ... ... ... ... ... ...okay ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ...
... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... maybe... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ...
So we bathed, ate supper and went to bed.
It was pretty late.
It was very little which we ate...
but we went to bed anyway.
At night, it was hard to sleep.
It was fucking cold, how can i sleep???
I was freezing, and gained a cold.
Everyone was sleeping, while i was told
by deathangel that if you stayed still you will sleep.
That sounded cheap.
I did not even sleep well.
It was like a cold hell.

I guess that was the end of day one!
Really pissed about Mr. Chandra's comments labeled.
Really upset that night walk was canceled.
Really glad that we won.
If it wasn't for the group, we would have lost..

So the next day, we basically
did some exercise and some PT.
Ate breakfast and had a re-test for our stationary drills.
And we got promoted to lance corporal and we will
live up to the name proudly...
hopefully.

~peace

Jerking off at...
3:18 PM

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

28th- Another wasted day

Aigh't...
Today was wasted.
i was alone at home while the whole day lasted.
So then i decided,
To go to the bus station
to go swimming.
Unfortunately, stupid precipitation
killed it.
If only the sky was lit.
Could've done a few laps if it did.
At least it was dark,
cause darkness makes me think better.
Made a few poems later.
This cannot be greater
than what it already is.
... oh wait, it can.
If i had something exciting to do in this holidays then.
But it is kinda grand,
cause i was able to do anything with the computer... don't need L.A.N.
And,
played a dota match...
got really attached
to that game... i guess i got influenced by ren kun and my ncc batch.
Even though i did play with computer players set to normal...
I COULD"VE played with real people
but it will be more difficult.

Can't wait for the ncc camp...
hope there is a feast!

Peace!

Jerking off at...
5:40 PM

27th- tomorrow's ncc

whoa!
Can't believe that i did not post
for two days whole!
Its not that there was nothing cold
to write about, its just that i'm too lazy to be bold
to write about
anything.
I wanted to go swimming
again.
But it was raining
and lightning will bring pain.
So i stayed at home watching
vids at youtube, dota and lots of t.v!
Very funny stuff they were showing
... Funny attitudes, haha.. really funny!

I think i have ncc camp tomorrow,
haven't packed at all . . . oh no.
I guess i'll do it today,
And then later display
my 'awesome' skills which i gained
in my trainings during school days!
Okays,
looks like its all planned out.
I've got nothing to do except for dota and eminem,
no doubt.
Dammit! just remembered that i have chores
to do around the house.
Why can't my mom call
anyone else to sweep floor, wash dishes. . . to lazy to do em' all.

~sigh

Jerking off at...
11:01 AM

Sunday, November 15, 2009

26th- EMINEM!!!!!!!!!!!

Today was superbly boring.
Did nothing the whole day
and played com the whole way.
My plan to swim was ruined.
i couldn't find my swimming costume...
got really saddened.
What was i to do?
Plus it was raining the whole day too.
So i played more computer for two
more hour.
Listened to eminem, 8 miles... Eminem has more than a tower
full of rhymes and spit em' all out any time... HE IS THE BEST RAPPER.
Even with pre-written rhymes on paper...
he is the best amongst all of artists even though he did make some blunders
in his life... his songs are lyrically better!
Even though he is vulgar!

LISTEN TO EMINEM AND YOU"LL BE BLOWN AWAY.
LISTEN CAREFULLY AND YOU'LL BE AMAZED THE WHOLE WAY
WITH WHAT HE HAS TO SAY!!!

Jerking off at...
9:36 PM

Saturday, November 14, 2009

25th- realization

Waddup peeps !
i forgot to post yeaterday. At least,
i'm posting now. I think i'm slowly losin
rhymes to release.
I can always think the rhymes,
But every time
i wanna write it down, i forgot the line.
Maybe its a sign
that i don't have the nerve
to compose these verse
and my ideas can never be flawless.
Always careless
with the words i put in. Thus,
having lots of messed up verses...
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But anywho, today was kinda of new
to me.
Did something before my class and i feel kinda guilty,
Please,
it wasn't that bad,
i went back to class after that.
I can't post what and why i did it,
not even a bit.
That was the only exciting thing today...
Played dota and listened to eminem the whole day.
i think i'm getting fat.
its kinda hard for me to say,
but i haven't gone to swimming for a long time... thats
why i think i'm getting bigger..
I'm just too lazy and always say that imma do it later.
From this... i got lazier.
I might do it tomorrow
cause tomorrow i might not follow
my fat conscience and not stick my face in the pillow
to long for the day and i wouldn't feel such sorrow
which come from these lazy acts and i have to plough
my way to gain muscularity. Though,
i might not be able to throw
myself into doing this yo.

Jerking off at...
6:23 PM

Thursday, November 12, 2009

24th- PDS?????????

I was wrong for the second
time again...
there was no PDS and
went to school for no reason.
How disappointing it is to wait for a long time
and get nothing in return...
I wasted my time and energy.
Didn't benefit me
in anyway. See,
i could've stayed at home and happily
playing dota for every
hour that i wasted over there.
When, i was on the way home,
i saw Ren Kun on the way to L.A.N.
~sigh

Jerking off at...
9:34 PM

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

23rd- ITS DONE!!!

YAY!
It has finally came.
The day where evryone has paid
me the money and i can lay
back and relax for the rest of the days.
All the reminders and says
has finally paid off
and the stress is gone... sort of...
I still have homework to do... ain't alot,
but still its a pack of em' and i'm too lazy to do em' all.
O.o... wait a sec.
don't i have PDS?
damn bitch ass!
i haven't gone to a single training... unless,
i give a whacked out excuse, lying is the best!
nah... i should tell the rest
of the PDS the real reasons why.
But the real reason is that i couldn't care less.
Thats one of the reason,
but the truth is i had forgotten
and i thought there wasn't
any in the first place, and i just happen
to be in school today when it was the commencement
of the PDS training...
Well... i decided that i would go the next day after
and face the consequences later.
I guess it is better
for the time being...
But i will die and i fear
that we will have to do CRAZY exercises!
I'm just glad that as a treasurer,
i have done my duties and i can relax better.
HAHA!
YEA!
I'm in a state of euphoria.

~ see ya guys!

Jerking off at...
3:21 PM

Monday, November 9, 2009

22nd- CIP with children

~sigh.
Today was sorta fun,
But it didn't last forever.
Played with little children who're poorer
than us kids.
They haven't been to mcDonalds ever
in their lives nor visited it.
That was how unfortunate these kids were.
I fear,
that they might have mantel breakdown or something.
oh dear...
So we went all out to have fun and cheer.
made it worth wild for them and the teachers...
They were so full of hope and could do better...
with their lives and with the attitude showed towards us.
There were two to three kids plus
some others, were saying," this ain't fun!
play catching with us!"
See, we can't play catching cause bruises can show up.
You wouldn't want a bu bu on your little, small arms.
One of em' knew what a boob and a lan jiao was...
All i did was stood there, struck with awe.
This lil young folks knew a little porn.
So afterward, we made balloons for them.
DAMN!!!
do you know how hard it is to tie these giant rubber bands!
Actually, their balloons, but to them,
its just clay
to mould into all sorts of shapes.
I just wanna tape
their mouths and assassinate
all one of them...
never mind that.
It was finally over and i kinda regret
me coming to these children's den!
Then,
we went back home, really tired.
wanted to sleep the whole trip towards
school.
But i didn't and didn't noe what the reason was too!
Later that afternoon,
i went back to my school,
to collect more money for the sports cap. T-shirt too.
2 people down another, another three, two
to go.

Jerking off at...
4:33 PM

Saturday, November 7, 2009

21st- Someone ackonwledge!!!

I'm so upset.
that i can't believe i let
my own rhymes interfere with me
which led
me to despair.
Why doesn't anyone care.
I can't bear
with this no more.
i hope somewhere out there
somebody sill enjoy
these posts which i compose.
Those
are the people who i admire.
The desire
to gain assertion
from these 'supporters' is the motivation
to continue on my repetitions.
That was my determination,
but as the days past and the lust
to continue was dematerialize,
i realized
that the only 'supporters' were my eyes
and my mind, with some other guys
and gals. They will always be my
best pals
Thats my comprehension.

Jerking off at...
2:21 PM

Friday, November 6, 2009

20th- Reluctance

Well, still blogging.
don't wanna do it,
but something is persuading me
to do so.
Anywho,
i spent the day at skool and trash
talking to the soft ballers.
waiting for ppl to pass me the cash.
Rather...
than doing it earlier.
i don't like being a treasurer.
Too much responsible for me...
oh dear.
er...
am i regretting becoming a sports captain
for the first time ever.
.~later~
.
.
.
:(

Jerking off at...
6:33 PM

Thursday, November 5, 2009

19th- CAN'T BE BODERED

.... .... .... .... .... ....
I can't be bordered to tell you what happened today.
Well, not like anyone cares if i put rhymes in my blog anyway.
Its okay...
don't need you to acknowledge
these post. Its not like i'll intimidate
all of ya'll if i don't update.

Jerking off at...
8:05 PM

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

18th- PDS?

kinda happy that we skipped it.
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Too lazy
to continue with the rest.
ummm... oh ya, when i came back i listened to music from to the best...
EMINEM.

Jerking off at...
6:39 PM

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

17th- PDS

This day today was really tiring!
Todays training was crazy!
i thought it was just PDS, but the torture was hurting me!
How many push ups was it?
oh ya... 50.
10 spider push ups and diamond one which makes it 20!
100 crunches and 20 sit ups.
I felt like i wanted to throw up in a cup.
Still it was hard like... you guessed it... fuck.
It was superbly unnecessary!
Just because we did the drills not properly,
and we forgot some, cause it was a long time since we did it.
Well, we just recapped some of it,
its easy and difficult at the same time if you ask me.
We made soo much noise that we disturbed the parent meeting
session. One of them complained and Mr sara came to start scolding
us. We were doing it in the dark.
So we couldn't see,
and then hakim stepped on Ren Kun's specs accidentally.
Instead of worrying, we were laughing...
Luckily, ren kun had an extra pair already.
It was pretty long.
wanted to go home and rest on my own...
Oh ya! before we went to school,
i went to ren kuns.
Went there to play some dota.
I got pawned and my skills were far
from his. If only i was on par
with him... but anyways enough about dota.
I did learn about something... so a lesson learned today is a lesson for eva.
Can't remember what it was but it was something.
I JUST KNOW IT!

Jerking off at...
7:03 PM

Monday, November 2, 2009

LOL

Damn this day cause i had a flu
the whole day through.
Alright, when i woke up i had a sore throat due
to a reason which i don't know of. do you?
Tried to overflow
myself but that soo
didn't help in any way.
The worse part was, i had ncc today.
But i still went cause i wanted the cip
hour. It didn't help cause it got worse and it left me
to suffer the consequences without taking any medication already.
Why didn't i see
this coming.
But once we reached there, guess what, it was raining!
So we waited at the Mcdonalds near East Coast park
sitting and waiting.
10 minutes had passed and we decided to start eating.
It was crazy!
Most of us bought large fries and i bought McFlurry.
Even Mr chandra joined in the feast.
We finished it quickly.
Actually,
when we finished everything it was already 3.30!
Can't believe that they have not call us up until
now.
In fact, the whole East side NCC, was waitng out.
And nobody gave us instructions about
what to do. Until some guy in white came up and told us that it was postponed.
It was clear and loud!
We wasted the whole day eating Mc donalds instead of earning CIP hour.
Well,
we had to wait even longer
cause the bus needed some time to come over hear.
But in the mean
time,my friend, edwind,
used his 'token' to get a free coffee bean.
But it was bitter so we added all kinds of addings.
It was insane!
We added 25 packs of sugar
and 20 packs of creamer.
Later,
it became seriously saturated!
Nobody wanted
to drink it so we had a ' spin the bottle' to see who would.
we then went to next level. We stuffed food
in it. It should
test like shit and we could
get stomach ache which i did after wards.
everyone was like spiting and rinsing
their mouths. laughing and making
noise. making such a ruckus.
Everyone was starring at us.
Even Mr chandra was laughing at the side.
Finally we decide,
that we waited quietly cause we didn't want to jeopardize.
our school's name. So that in their eyes
they will think that we are good and so i
and my friends sat there waiting for the bus to arrive.
Finally, it did.
Took a few pictures with it.
Once we got back we went home straight.
I didn't care if i went home late.
i just wanted to rest and get rid of this flu i hate!
Once i got back, bathed,
changed and went to bed.
woke up at 7.30... guess what... i still have it.
Luckily, my parents came back home with some new medicine for me.
Took it, hope it would be the remedy.
Now i'm just waiting.
praying
for it to work.
cause tomorrow i have an ncc practice and i need to be better!

Jerking off at...
7:57 PM

Sunday, November 1, 2009

16th- Toay again... again... agian... again

Another day has passed
and it went by very fast.
First. i spent half of the day listening to music.
Eminem of course... Is it
really that boring to hear out songs that are worth it.
f.y.i( to all those people who hate eminem. You can all lick
your own dicks.
If you can't reach.
Hire some one to do it
for you!)
But after that, its just continuous tuning
until i decided to go swimming.
ren kun didn't want to came along
so i went there alone.
Damn you kun!
with no one but myself... Sucks that i STILL don't have a phone
to listen to eminem on the way to and fro from home.
while i was in the bus, i saw a friend, raehan.
Shook his hand, talked a little. kinda fun.
But he was just one stop away. He could have run.
I guess he was too lazy
just like me.:P:D
Once i dropped off,
On the way there i felt like i wanna cough
cause there was a lotta guys smoking,
and the wind was blowing the fumes towards me.
Tried to cover my nose but it was not helping.
Finally!
i could cross the road
and abandon that hell hole!
Once i reached there,
paid for a card and entered the boys lair.
Changed and had troubles doing the laps cause a lot of people were there.
I was bumping into so many people and i had to apologize even though they didn't care.
Eventually, i did only 25 laps!
when i could have done more if only the gaps
where bigger.
Then the bumps would not have been so many.
And i would have done more like 30 to 40.
When i was on the way home.
I wanted to buy fresh milk. the one which fats contents were low.
Though,
the shop that i went to had only the fattening one so
i bought it, even if i gained the weight which i lost on my own.
What a waste.
But i did like the taste.
I finished it up until the base.
Once i got back
i couldn't play straight away.
whats up with that!
i had to wait for some time until took it away from my lil bro's hands.
Played dota straight and i was dominating through out the land.
But i was playing with computer...
so me killing was kinda lousier
than what i would have killed if i played with real people.
but, on the positive side... i killed five
and died thrice!
It ain't lies!
Ate my dinner after that, while watching wizards of waverly place.
I have not watched that in days.
But the laughter was brought up in so many ways.
Looks like tomorrow i have to do a beach cleaning at the beach the 'day after today '.:P
Gonna be boring.
i just noe it.
Hope you will be amazed with this post cause my mind right now is lit.

Jerking off at...
9:26 PM